tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4742272516878916648.post2381828303861514677..comments2023-05-12T06:54:39.485-04:00Comments on Her Lumpiness: Lolita Fashion and Lifestyle: Lumpy Gets Personal: RepriseMiss Lumpyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15787979324951814676noreply@blogger.comBlogger2125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4742272516878916648.post-70122578712279534632010-07-13T16:30:55.083-04:002010-07-13T16:30:55.083-04:00Oh, oh goodness! From the bottom of my heart, than...Oh, oh goodness! From the bottom of my heart, thank you! I'm more moved than I could possibly say. Thank you so much, for writing this, for your kind words and for the advice.<br /><br />After reading this I decided to tell my mother I'd like to join my family for dinner with them. C: She was very surprised - it's the first time in possibly months I've done that rather than dine upon leaves and celery or even just skip eating altogether - but she did also seem very happy about it!<br /><br />And I've thought about it a little before and I'm thinking now of getting help again, like I did briefly last time. I really do want to get better, it just seems like... such a mountain to climb and sometimes it looks impossible. Not least because part of me <i>doesn't</i> want to get better. But I realise what you mean now, about the difference between wanting to do the things that seem healthy out of love or out of hatred. From that angle I can see how self-destructive it is. I mean, I knew it was, but somehow putting it like that... makes me sound more ill than I'd been willing to think about.<br /><br />I know what xoxo means. It's a struggle to eat three meals a day with the constant flashing message of "You're eating! It'll get you fat! Quit eating!" bouncing around your head and making you feel sick with guilt for having been too weak to resist. You can lock yourself away from drugs, but how can you lock yourself away from your own head?<br /><br />Thank you again - I hope I can repay you someday for your kindness, and how much it brightened my day and gave me hope. ♥Fhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08188121558514010000noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4742272516878916648.post-43323207919485282782010-07-13T15:27:58.792-04:002010-07-13T15:27:58.792-04:00I've had an eating disorder too. the hardest p...I've had an eating disorder too. the hardest part about recovery is that you have to face the demon at least three times a day. unlike other addictions, which you can quit cold turkey, you need food to survive.<br />I was overweight. it has taken several years for me to be able to eat well and exercise without becoming too obsessive. it's hard to do the "moderation" thing we hear so much of.<br />it makes me sad how much self-hate there is in this world.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com